I losing my fucking mind Over you Not even close to Over you I'll apologize in advance and say I haven't thought about you in a positive light in the past three weeks Sorry that I remember every word, every vocal inflection that you make my memory is photographic when it comes to convictions Sorry for to be the bearer of bad news While your cousin bears the rings At the wedding I wasn't invited to I guess I just haven't been the same without you because We used to be stuck together like paper crafts and glue And if you think this will stay the same then you're probably wrong I wish I could be a catalyst in song And who am I to think that our flame wouldn't die out When all that was kindling was paper hearts and lighter fluid I've got my heart out on a sleeve That I'm knitting up for you I'll convince my self that one is greater than two That one is greater than two Sorry for to be the bearer of bad news While your cousin bears the rings At the wedding I wasn't invited to I guess I just haven't been the same without you because We used to be stuck together like paper crafts and glue

I'm not here to serenade More or less just here to exchange a wallow We outgrew each other and that's a bitter pill to swallow I saw a placid lake that reminded me of your eyes and now I can't breathe And That juxtapose was a verbal rose built to say you take my breath away And oh, how I wish I had actually said that I saw a beaming star in the moonlight that reminded me of our distance Get it it's funny because normally the connotations of stars are positive images in love songs I'm not that good at music If that was your concern, be thankful, I'm addressing it in the bridge And it seems like our daydreams about each other don't mean anything at all anymore My limelight doesn't hit your eyes like before I'm sorry if that's disappointing news but if it makes you feel better I haven't been the same without you And if you want to, then I probably want to too. I'm just waiting to see what you're planning for us to do If we're driving off a bridge tonight I wouldn't mind it I wouldn't mind it I saw a boy playing basketball and he missed his shot oh that sounds familiar Get it? Haha it's funny because I missed my shot with you boo yes haha I'm funny now please be my honey again Ok yeah that didn't work And maybe this didn't end on even terms Maybe I'm lost inside of my own head And you were the compass that guided me through It's hopeless like Hitler coming back to life It's hopeless like Fetuses raining from the sky And it's hopeless like me making it through the night And hopeless like the ambulance getting to me before I die And it seems like our daydreams about each other don't mean anything at all anymore My limelight doesn't hit your eyes like before I'm sorry if that's disappointing news but if it makes you feel better I haven't been the same without you And if you want to, then I probably want to too. I'm just waiting to see what you're planning for us to do If we're driving off a bridge tonight I wouldn't mind it I wouldn't mind it

I'm not sure that this will look any different In hindsight Everyone seems to act like they care about you And that's not right in my eyes I'm the kind of guy that believes in miracles But I don't see one coming anytime soon, so Let go of your faith It'll save you from the disappointment in the end I try but I can't reach You with my signals, you're chalking up 700 missed calls now I wish I could say that the Sunset sets our silhouettes in place But that's a trivial wish for me to ask one can't simply go back to the past And the past is locked away and the future's key is turning also I wish I could say that the sun would set our silhouettes in place for a day At this point I'm sounding pretty stupid Sorry but my mind is a jungle and I haven't adapted to swing from its vines I want to croak an apology But my thought webs loop into nooses and I asphyxiate You don't seem to take interest anyway You seem to be noticing that it's pointless and that you should Let go of your faith It'll save you from disappointment in the end I've learned and I can't wait To start the cycle all over again and continue punching myself in the face I wish I could say that the Sunset sets our silhouettes in place But that's a trivial wish for me to ask one can't simply go back to the past And the past is locked away and the future's key is turning also I wish I could say that the sun would set our silhouettes in place for a day

I think about you like you're the love of my whole life But you aren't I wanna hookup maybe makeout in a closet Then fallout a week later Like normal kids do But we aren't normal kids We can't just have fun without seven thousand different strings and stipulations suffocating us We're adults in younger bodies That still Cry like hormonal preteens when things don't go as planned And we've tried twice before And it just hasn't worked out As much as I want it to As much as I'm in love with you With my whole heart It's still beating Is yours? Step out of your shell for a little while Look me in the eyes and say that wanted this to work out Because I'm starting to doubt that you ever did Maybe you just like burning in the atmosphere Maybe we aren't supposed to be happy And maybe that's okay with me if it's alright with you I don't hate you I just want to be away from you for a very long period of time I want you to sit around for 2 months and think about how awesome I am And the idiom "Third Time is a Charm" You think everything is your fault You're guilty when I'm sad Trust me that's only half of the time and the fact that you think that it's all because of you is selfish in it's own right Step out of your shell for a little while Look me in the eyes and say that wanted this to work out Because I'm starting to doubt that you ever did Maybe you just like burning in the atmosphere Maybe we aren't supposed to be happy And maybe that's okay with me if it's alright with you

And you say I've got my whole life Ahead of me But I would disagree And say I've got a few breaths left At best My throat's tight Like the noose that I'm making out of the words you've said to me Sorry if I'm making you uncomfortable I'm just a hopeless case And right about now I'd rather be In a million different places than the mental one I'm in You take my breath away But in the way Where I'm gonna die If you don't stop And I don't mind that at all And I'm so suicidal Except this time I'm involving you in it I hate you I love you I'm sharpening the knives I hate me I love you They're just for you and I What's the point of living when we'll just be in a bag full of nails on the highway? And who am I to be the one that says that you should change When I've been a piece of shit for 16 years straight?

Why is it called an Adam's apple if Eve ate it? You stab your friends in the back, but I don't mind because we're only acquaintances Don't hold your breath, just let it out and keep you head turned over while in this swimming pool Sorry if that was a little harsh, I was kidding. Although, I never lie unless I say I'm kidding. Unlike you. Hit the gas, then put it in neutral. Don't look at the screaming people just let it lose control, and we'll fall. When we hit the ground, don't be surprised when I'm not there. You eat my soul like candy corn, and stomp on me like a shopping mall. By the way, here's your valentine. This feels like that one time that I had a dream where I tortured you until I woke up. Except the tables are turned and I'm not gonna wake up anytime soon and I'm okay with that. I miss learning how to tie my shoes. Instead of trying to learn how to escape from myself. It isn't actually you. Sorry if I came off angry in fact it's still the same. I'm running from myself and building walls between us out of clay. The sky looks like kelp forests and your eyes look like the sky. I'm too mesmerized to question why. Let's hope that I can figure myself out so I'll see you tomorrow. See you tomorrow.

It's okay to cut yourself It's okay hate it when you do it but then continue a night later We've been there It's okay to do drugs To run from all your problems But it's not okay when drugs become them I've been there I'm sorry if you've ever stayed up late Staring at the ceiling Wishing your fan would cut your head off I've been there I'm just a fucked up guy when it comes to life And you are fucked up too We all are I've seen some fucked up things done to people And I have done them to, I've been there, I've been low I've hit rock bottom at least a thousand times before And you can pick yourself up Trust me, you can make it It's okay I've been there It's okay to want to swerve your car off the road And into the lake that's far below I've done that In the dreams that plague each night of my life And it's okay if you bad dreams too We all do It's okay to cry into your best friend's sleeve And not say anything for hours, I've done that, it's okay I've been there I'm just a fucked up guy when it comes to life And you are fucked up too We all are I've seen some fucked up things done to people And I have done them to, I've been there, I've been low I've hit rock bottom at least a thousand times before And you can pick yourself up Trust me, you can make it It's okay I've been there

You smile And it's kind of pretty But I can tell when you Want to break down And the part that hurts the most is when I can't be there when you do (Not to watch or anything that's creepy I mean to help you through it) It's weird for me because I never thought I could feel so Empathetic, it's pathetic to me sometimes So I'll just say None of your scars will fade with time But the pain that comes from them, It will pass And if you want I could be the one who helps you forget about your rain Rain, go away, Rain, go away Even if it's just me laying atop some monkey bars at the park when it's sprinkling You could chill under that and be dry Metaphorically speaking, of course